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Sunday, February 26, 2006
Back in Hong Kong when I was much younger I used to have quite a lot of nightmares. Not exactly nightmares but just dreams which are really weird. Some of them are so vivid that I can still remember till today.
One of them I was at a place filled with lava (which in my mind = hell) and I had to walk on flimsy bridges right on top of the burning lava. Kinda like in LoTR with the balrog except I had this dream more than 10 years ago. Another involved me flying along side my apartment block and estate at that time.
So as a kid I was plagued with frequent nightmares and as a result, I used to pray to God everynight to not let me dream at all when I go to sleep.
Call it a miracle or what, but since then I didn't really have anymore dreams and nowadays I very rarely have long detailed dreams and most of the time even if i do, i wake up the next morning and I pretty much can't remember anything. You know what it's like~
The previous "nightmare" which I had was like a year and a half ago? The one with the weed smokers and medusa which I blogged about. Anyway, last night I had another nightmare which fucking woke me up in the middle of the night. This is more or less what happened in the dream:
I was at a school quadrangle or something, a public place, open air, a few trees in the background. And it was around evening time when the sun is setting. I was not alone in the dream. Couple of my friends were there. Ian, Jasper and a couple of others who I knew was there, but couldnt really see/remember their faces. We were just kinda fooling around and laughing and then the "camera" focuses on a public toilet. It was like those kinda toilets you'd find at east coast park, where you can almost (and in my dream, completely) look into the toilet and see the cubicles. And one of the doors to a cubicle was opening and closing by itself. Opening and banging shut repeatedly to be exact. We all then realise there's something fucked up in the toilet (a ghost). And i even remember Ian saying in the dream, "Fuck I'm not going in there". So the group of us were just kinda standing outside the toilet looking at each other, sorta laughing and panicking at the same time. The next thing I know, I tried to be funny and with my back facing the toilet, I backed up onto the toilet door (not the cubicle door, the toilet suddenly had a door to it and it was like those you can push open) and I playfully pushed it open. Somehow after that I was sitting on the ground, right outside the toilet door with my hands still behind my back from the pushing. And then I see Jasper (he was facing me and the toilet) looking scared shitless and he says to me, "There's something in the toilet.. It's trying to come out.." So there I was, sitting right outside the toilet and even thou my back was facing the toilet, I could sense this ju-on type of motherfucker crawling out from the toilet towards me. I froze up and I closed my eyes. I then hear Jasper shouting "Don't!" and the next thing I know I'm inside the toilet, stuck with the motherfucker. That was when I woke up (violently, like in the movies when people wake up with a huge gasp) and was actually slightly traumatized by the dream.
Some people (e.g. Darius) say that dreams have meanings which reflect upon our reality. I highly doubt this nightmare meant anything, and it better not, but it still scared the shit outta me.
I look forward to not having bad dreams for another 1 1/2 years. =(
monkay @ 9:54 PM
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Name:Siu Chung
Alias: monkay
Stats: 19/m/~180cm. Black hair. Dark brown eyes.
Birthdate: 110387
School: Singapore Polytechnic: DARE
Email/friendster: standafan@hotmail.com
Enjoys: Guitars, music, long bus rides, the ocean.
Idols: Synyster Gates
Info: About time I updated this shit. I like to have a good time, all the time. I have a dare to do attitude cause hey,
I'm still young and I wanna experience everything while I still can. I wouldnt consider myself a party animal, but whenever I do, I party hard
and I party right. I am pretty happy with my life atm. Good friends. Great buddies. If you aren't already in my life and wish to be
a part of it, well queue up and go through the screening process like everyone else. =(
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Name: Darius Huang
Alias: Stoosh
Stats:18/m/176cm...Brown/Black hair...Brown eyes
Birthdate: 22/05/87
School: Singapore Polytechnic DBA 2A/05
Email/friendster: darius_style@yahoo.com
Enjoys: dancin'/surfin'/rappin'/chillin'
Idols: Eminem/Seth Green/Kelly Slater/Craig David
Numba: 98007738
#1 Belief:Siu chung sleeps too much; he's a pig.
Info:I LOVE TRAVELLING AND THRILL-SEEKING. Travelling and exploring the world is so wonderful because there's just so much to see and do. As for thrill-seeking, I believe that if you don't put your life on the edge, and don't seek novelties that most people dare not do, then your life has gone to waste. Risk it, you only have one life.
yeah i take shit easy, i don't really get phased. like me or not, it don't
really matter, because in this world there will ALWAYS be people that love you, and people that hate you. that's how life is. sad, yeah, pfft.
all my beliefs are in my posts, so read 'em and chillout. word up Gs.
I have many beliefs about women and my life, it's taken me a long time to come up with this, so enjoy it.
1) I don't ever let women use their looks/sexual powers to take advantage of me. There are no special privileges with me. It's who you are. Most guys succumb to women like helpless babies. Fuck that.
2) I am un-selfconscious and don't give a fuck what others think.
3) I put myself and my life first, but anyone else that comes after that is treated exceptionally good.
4) I deserve, have permission, and can hold an exceptional women. Most men don't think they can, it's sad.
5) I don't care what the outcome is, if women don't want me, then it doesn't matter to me.
6) I can deal with any test that women like throwing at me. IN FACT, a lot of the time it's usually cute and funny.
7) I make CAUSE in the world, not effect. People don't have an impact on me, I have an impact on them.
8) I'm confident and comfortable in my own body. Most guys are self-conscious about themselves and are not comfortable with their own selves. I know what I'm doing.
9) I'm a really good communicator with people, most women, ESPECIALLY of what I want.
10) I'm always in control, I never let outside events de-stabalize me. (Mainly emotional.)
11) I'm NEVER NEEDY, I keep my power for myself. I don't 'need' anything.
12) I think sex is fucking great, I am ready to have sexual conversations with anyone, anytime. As long as they're legal. ;p
13) I'm comfortable around women, in fact, sometimes I feel I'm a bit too comfortable that it worries them.
14) I can control myself and I can wait. I can build anticipation. Even if I want something really badly, I can wait.
15) I don't tolerate disrespect of myself/my time/my property. If girls wanna waste my time, that's it, it's over, I don't wanna hear it.
16) I'm a catch. A pretty hard catch, but that's to ensure I get quality.
17) I'm not impressed by outward symbols of money or status. I value people and judge them based on their character; I am fair.
18) I may be totally into a woman and crazy over her, but I don't tell her early on and I sure as shit don't let it slip indirectly. I take my time.
19) I never lose my composure, ever.
20) I am seldom predictable.
