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Sunday, June 05, 2005
Dejavu, here I go again with the whole life thing about the word 'Choice', but trust me, that word is more significant than almost any other word in your life.
Firstly I want to start off by saying that if any of you have parents that are still living together with you, and you complain about them in any sort/way, then FUCK YOU. Appreciate your fucking family because at least your family is still together. Don't complain at all until your family gets into a situation like mine k fuckers.
Now that that's out of the way.....
Obviously, your entire life is a choice, anything you do is a choice, that's a given. But you have to look at the major choices you make in life. The...life-changing ones. Like...the one I made, last year.
I made a decision to leave year 11 high school in Australia last year, to come back to Singapore to study in poly. Now for my entire high school life IN Singapore, I've ALWAYS been looking forward to going to Australia to finish up high school there.
But no, I decided to come back to SG because I kept fighting with my mom there, so go me, 3-4years of dreaming shattered in a single month. But I made that choice.
I made the choice to leave behind...
1) My car, or ability to drive at 17. 2) My surfboard, or ability to surf almost all year. 3) My room that I intended to fully decorate and look extremely teenly cool. 4) The beautiful Australian weather that isn't 90% humidity. *sighs* 5) Super hawt auzzie shopping centres. 6) Oh-so-friendly personality of Australians that I totally love. 7) The lifestyle I've always dreamed of. 8) Open-minded, aggressive, sexy and dirty-talking Australian girls. Mmmmm...
So many nights I think to myself, "Did I make the right decision?" I normally never second guess in life, but with this decision I made, I simply can't lie back and let it pass me. I doubt, I regret, it constantly bugs me. What if I had held out the extra 2 weeks my dad told me to wait, and had sorted things out with my mom? Would I have been able to live there and live the life I want?
*shrugs*
Quoting a friend of mine she says:
michele_lawson : Your life is your own, the choices you make, the roads you choose are what will get you through it. You just need to see that whatever choices you make lead you to the life that will be yours and only yours.
So true isn't it?
While I walk the streets, live my life, and talk to people, none of you ever see that beneath my surface I am deeply troubled by this very decision I made. By the very effects it's caused, and how much it's changed my life. Bleh.
Here's another good quote by another friend:
||åßZ x quiet intensity. says: you have a choice
And I'll leave this post at that, that your life is a choice, and you live by the decisions you make. Think about your decisions, then make them wisely, and NEVER, EVER REGRET. Because when you regret, that's when your life starts to dampen and you get all depressed and shit.............
Like me.
Mystery @ 9:01 PM
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Name:Siu Chung
Alias: monkay
Stats: 19/m/~180cm. Black hair. Dark brown eyes.
Birthdate: 110387
School: Singapore Polytechnic: DARE
Email/friendster: standafan@hotmail.com
Enjoys: Guitars, music, long bus rides, the ocean.
Idols: Synyster Gates
Info: About time I updated this shit. I like to have a good time, all the time. I have a dare to do attitude cause hey,
I'm still young and I wanna experience everything while I still can. I wouldnt consider myself a party animal, but whenever I do, I party hard
and I party right. I am pretty happy with my life atm. Good friends. Great buddies. If you aren't already in my life and wish to be
a part of it, well queue up and go through the screening process like everyone else. =(
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Name: Darius Huang
Alias: Stoosh
Stats:18/m/176cm...Brown/Black hair...Brown eyes
Birthdate: 22/05/87
School: Singapore Polytechnic DBA 2A/05
Email/friendster: darius_style@yahoo.com
Enjoys: dancin'/surfin'/rappin'/chillin'
Idols: Eminem/Seth Green/Kelly Slater/Craig David
Numba: 98007738
#1 Belief:Siu chung sleeps too much; he's a pig.
Info:I LOVE TRAVELLING AND THRILL-SEEKING. Travelling and exploring the world is so wonderful because there's just so much to see and do. As for thrill-seeking, I believe that if you don't put your life on the edge, and don't seek novelties that most people dare not do, then your life has gone to waste. Risk it, you only have one life.
yeah i take shit easy, i don't really get phased. like me or not, it don't
really matter, because in this world there will ALWAYS be people that love you, and people that hate you. that's how life is. sad, yeah, pfft.
all my beliefs are in my posts, so read 'em and chillout. word up Gs.
I have many beliefs about women and my life, it's taken me a long time to come up with this, so enjoy it.
1) I don't ever let women use their looks/sexual powers to take advantage of me. There are no special privileges with me. It's who you are. Most guys succumb to women like helpless babies. Fuck that.
2) I am un-selfconscious and don't give a fuck what others think.
3) I put myself and my life first, but anyone else that comes after that is treated exceptionally good.
4) I deserve, have permission, and can hold an exceptional women. Most men don't think they can, it's sad.
5) I don't care what the outcome is, if women don't want me, then it doesn't matter to me.
6) I can deal with any test that women like throwing at me. IN FACT, a lot of the time it's usually cute and funny.
7) I make CAUSE in the world, not effect. People don't have an impact on me, I have an impact on them.
8) I'm confident and comfortable in my own body. Most guys are self-conscious about themselves and are not comfortable with their own selves. I know what I'm doing.
9) I'm a really good communicator with people, most women, ESPECIALLY of what I want.
10) I'm always in control, I never let outside events de-stabalize me. (Mainly emotional.)
11) I'm NEVER NEEDY, I keep my power for myself. I don't 'need' anything.
12) I think sex is fucking great, I am ready to have sexual conversations with anyone, anytime. As long as they're legal. ;p
13) I'm comfortable around women, in fact, sometimes I feel I'm a bit too comfortable that it worries them.
14) I can control myself and I can wait. I can build anticipation. Even if I want something really badly, I can wait.
15) I don't tolerate disrespect of myself/my time/my property. If girls wanna waste my time, that's it, it's over, I don't wanna hear it.
16) I'm a catch. A pretty hard catch, but that's to ensure I get quality.
17) I'm not impressed by outward symbols of money or status. I value people and judge them based on their character; I am fair.
18) I may be totally into a woman and crazy over her, but I don't tell her early on and I sure as shit don't let it slip indirectly. I take my time.
19) I never lose my composure, ever.
20) I am seldom predictable.
