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Sunday, October 31, 2004
..................I don't know why, but lately, I've been suffering horribly from Insomnia. I can't sleep at night, I toss and turn in bed and I keep asking myself, "WHY THE FUCK AM I NOT ASLEEP YET". And when I DO manage to fall asleep, I wake up 2-3hours later, thinking I've slept for 7-8hours and that it's probably 8-9am or some shit and realise that it's only 3-4am. Oh and the next best thing is, I CANT GET BACK TO SLEEP AGAIN.
So there I am, lying in my bed at 3-4am, still tossing and turning not knowing what the fuck is wrong with me, and then I just get up from my bed and come on msn to talk to my nigger friends on aim.
Sigh, Siu Chung says it's the exams. "I don't think you were even this stressed during the O levels.", he says. Rofl and the worst thing is I think he's right. But ugh, during the O's, I at least had an idea what the fuck I was studying and going to be tested on. OMG I JUST REALISED I ONLY HAVE 3 EXAMS TOO LOL WTF~
I guess it was the projects too or some shit, I don't fucking know, but I can't fucking sleep at night. I've been awake for 24hours and 40mins so far, and I only slept 3hours last night. I don't even feel tired now, which is UN-FUCKING-BELIEVABLE. Normally if I sleep for like 3 hours or some shit then I'm really really dead during the day, but noooooo I've got along just fine today, and I'm still awake as a male lion humping his...nevermind.
I'm gonna try and lie in bed and probably bash my head against the wall to force myself to sleep. I gotta study tomorrow ahhhhhhhhhh.
ADVICE TO ALL KIDS: PLEASE PAY ATTENTION DURING CLASS. DON'T SKIP CLASSES/NOT PAY ATTENTION DURING CLASS LIKE ME AND ONLY STUDY DURING THE WEEK OF THE EXAMS ITSELF, BECAUSE IT'S REALLY F-U-C-K-E-D. AND YES I'M A VULGAR GUY WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT. RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mystery @ 3:42 AM
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Name:Siu Chung
Alias: monkay
Stats: 19/m/~180cm. Black hair. Dark brown eyes.
Birthdate: 110387
School: Singapore Polytechnic: DARE
Email/friendster: standafan@hotmail.com
Enjoys: Guitars, music, long bus rides, the ocean.
Idols: Synyster Gates
Info: About time I updated this shit. I like to have a good time, all the time. I have a dare to do attitude cause hey,
I'm still young and I wanna experience everything while I still can. I wouldnt consider myself a party animal, but whenever I do, I party hard
and I party right. I am pretty happy with my life atm. Good friends. Great buddies. If you aren't already in my life and wish to be
a part of it, well queue up and go through the screening process like everyone else. =(
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Name: Darius Huang
Alias: Stoosh
Stats:18/m/176cm...Brown/Black hair...Brown eyes
Birthdate: 22/05/87
School: Singapore Polytechnic DBA 2A/05
Email/friendster: darius_style@yahoo.com
Enjoys: dancin'/surfin'/rappin'/chillin'
Idols: Eminem/Seth Green/Kelly Slater/Craig David
Numba: 98007738
#1 Belief:Siu chung sleeps too much; he's a pig.
Info:I LOVE TRAVELLING AND THRILL-SEEKING. Travelling and exploring the world is so wonderful because there's just so much to see and do. As for thrill-seeking, I believe that if you don't put your life on the edge, and don't seek novelties that most people dare not do, then your life has gone to waste. Risk it, you only have one life.
yeah i take shit easy, i don't really get phased. like me or not, it don't
really matter, because in this world there will ALWAYS be people that love you, and people that hate you. that's how life is. sad, yeah, pfft.
all my beliefs are in my posts, so read 'em and chillout. word up Gs.
I have many beliefs about women and my life, it's taken me a long time to come up with this, so enjoy it.
1) I don't ever let women use their looks/sexual powers to take advantage of me. There are no special privileges with me. It's who you are. Most guys succumb to women like helpless babies. Fuck that.
2) I am un-selfconscious and don't give a fuck what others think.
3) I put myself and my life first, but anyone else that comes after that is treated exceptionally good.
4) I deserve, have permission, and can hold an exceptional women. Most men don't think they can, it's sad.
5) I don't care what the outcome is, if women don't want me, then it doesn't matter to me.
6) I can deal with any test that women like throwing at me. IN FACT, a lot of the time it's usually cute and funny.
7) I make CAUSE in the world, not effect. People don't have an impact on me, I have an impact on them.
8) I'm confident and comfortable in my own body. Most guys are self-conscious about themselves and are not comfortable with their own selves. I know what I'm doing.
9) I'm a really good communicator with people, most women, ESPECIALLY of what I want.
10) I'm always in control, I never let outside events de-stabalize me. (Mainly emotional.)
11) I'm NEVER NEEDY, I keep my power for myself. I don't 'need' anything.
12) I think sex is fucking great, I am ready to have sexual conversations with anyone, anytime. As long as they're legal. ;p
13) I'm comfortable around women, in fact, sometimes I feel I'm a bit too comfortable that it worries them.
14) I can control myself and I can wait. I can build anticipation. Even if I want something really badly, I can wait.
15) I don't tolerate disrespect of myself/my time/my property. If girls wanna waste my time, that's it, it's over, I don't wanna hear it.
16) I'm a catch. A pretty hard catch, but that's to ensure I get quality.
17) I'm not impressed by outward symbols of money or status. I value people and judge them based on their character; I am fair.
18) I may be totally into a woman and crazy over her, but I don't tell her early on and I sure as shit don't let it slip indirectly. I take my time.
19) I never lose my composure, ever.
20) I am seldom predictable.
